Trust in God!!

This week has taught me many important things, most importantly to trust God.  So I got a CT scan this week and the results were.......absolutely NOTHING!!!! They said they didn't find anything but I was still in tons of pain.  So I was really sad.  So I got a blessing and the 3 main things it said were:

1. Read the Scriptures they'll give you the answers you're searching for.

2. Listen to your body, it can talk to you, so listen.

3. Rest.  Your body needs rest to heal.

The first two I was like, awesome, yeah totally true, the third one I was shocked by, truly shocked!!!  I was saying to myself rest! I can't rest!! I don't have time for that, I'm on a mission, this is the Lord's time, its not my time, and so on.  Luckily my wonderful companion reminded me that blessings are from God, and if God tells you to do something, you do it....no matter what you think is better. 

So throughout the rest of the week I listened to my body, and when I felt that I couldn't go anymore, when I needed the rest, I rested.  And we have never had more success in a week.  We were able to find 6 NEW investigators, and put 1 of them on date, and we had such a great feeling.  I learned that when we trust in God, and do as he asks, he'll provide the miracles!

I also learned about Joy and Happiness alot this week, this is for you mom!

So, I was really sad on Thursday because they couldn't find anything on the CT scan, yet I'm still in pain. Something that had prepared me to not let the bad news get me down was an exchange we hadWednesday night! Sister Hall, my MTC companion, came to my area, and Sister Downs went to their area with Sister Packard, and Sister Dean so that Sister Downs could get out since we had needed to stay home for lots of time the previous days.

 Anyway, Sister Hall knows me well because I pretty much spilt everything to her about my past at the MTC and so for an hour and a half or so we just talked....she helped me realize that not only was I feeling the extreme physical pain, but I was letting that discourage me.  I had a mental wall, and a physical wall to break through and some days it was just too hard.  So she, being the wonderful person she is, had us write down all our excuses and burn them.  Then we put them down the garbage disposal.  It was actually very liberating! 

We went and tracted for like 30 minutes and as we did we set goals to try to help me change my attitude, and to break down the walls that were making it hard for me to work with my full potential.  We made a Physical, Mental, Spiritual, and Social goal. 

Physical: I will wake up at 6:30 EVERY day and not lay in bed but truly be up and out, even if I am sick.

Mental: I will memorize one Preach my Gospel scripture a day.

Spiritual: I will TEAR APART (study in depth) chapter 4 of PMG, "Recognizing the Spirit" each day!

Social: I will commit 1 BOLD act a day.

As I've done these, and truly given my pain and trust to God I have seen the difference in my attitude.  Instead of dreading knocking on doors because people slam their doors in my face, I look forward to those few people that we're able to talk to and bear testimony of Christ with.  I have realized that I have been so much happier, and had more everlasting Joy as I've centered my life more on Jesus Christ, and as I've strived to align my will, with his, as opposed to his will to mine.  This week more than any other week Alma 26: 12 has stuck out to me:

"Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therfore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast in my God, for in his strength I can do all things."

I have truly seen that this week.  I have physically and spiritually had little strength but through a blessing, and through living according to how I should, and focusing more on the work than my pain I have gained so much greater Happiness and Joy!!!  I have come to truly see that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer, and that he knows what each of us are going through.  One of my favorite quotes from PMG is

"All that is unfair in life, can be made right through the Atonement of Jesus Christ"

That is so true, so accept him, become happier by turning to him, and keeping his commandments.  I promise that you will become so much happier, and everything that may have bothered you in the past, will truly just be in the past.  You won't have to worry about it anymore.  It will just be another step you had to take to get closer to God.

I am so grateful for this week.  It has taught me so much about my savior, and has truly brought me closer to him, and made me more excited to do his work!

"Obedience brings blessings, Exact Obedience brings miracles!" How true this is!

Be obedient, follow Christ, and be an example and a light to all around you.  You may be the only light they ever see.

I love you all so much!! I hope you all have an amazing week, and that you know how much I love you!! I pray for you ALL, every morning and night! 

I LOVE YOU!!!

 

Sister Thomas